问题。。。

现在已经5月了，有很多改变的事情。。。
事情真的很多。。。
有失败的。。。

有生气的。。。

有伤心的。。。

有担心的。。。

有放弃的。。。

统统都有份！

第一重要的是身体的问题。。。
我的身体终于还是出现了我打柔道后的非常轻微后遗症。。。哈哈。。。

第二则是健康的问题。。。当然是非常私人的问题啦~~~

第三重要的是唱歌的问题。。。
我现在发现只有我唱歌给朋友听。。。
但是很少很少非常少的听到有人会在我身边轻声地哼歌~~
希望有这样的一个人出现，我会非常感动的。。XD
还有就是最近唱歌唱到很失败，不是猪叫，就是猴子叫！
连在台湾的比赛也连输2场。。。那里还有信心这两样字的存在呢。。？
根本就是被打击到吗！>.<

第四则是感情方面的问题。。。
我，说真真的，没有谈过一场恋爱。。。@.@。。。
在我字典根本就没有恋爱这两粒字吗。。。
为何呢？
因为我很迟钝。。。哈哈！
也就是我没有女朋友的咯。。。因为我很菜。。。
所以，你们要笑就comment来笑我。。。
不要在fb还是msn爽我。。。-.-。。。

现在，我本身存在着许多的不安因素。。。
有太多了，想都想不完~~
所以，现在还是不想了。。。
把心情写下来是为了以后会后悔为何会写这些无聊的东西。。。XD

Future...

What's life actually?i have a course in my school tells me something very meaningful n realistic..

He the lecturer ask everyone ,"Now all of u students are in a school learning now,let me ask u all 1 simple question,is this country really is u wanted so long?"

Thats a very very good question and i actually start to think about it!

some of u study painting,lecturer,teacher,doctor,o whatever..but after all the studying,whoever who do the job related to your studies only 1/4 as i mention just now!
maybe this is the recycle of the life and the nature of people(my theory)..

Now let me ask you..
"My friends,if u are studying right now,is this u really wan to study?or just being force by your parents o whatever situation u have right now..follow your heart..follow your intinct..follow your six sense and study your beloved subject that u really wanted..no matter it takes how long to achieved your goal..but 1 day it will acomplished and u get what u wished.."

Actually that's saying me as well..i started to ask myself in my heart..
is this what i wanted so long..?
is this what i choose forever..?
is this the real choice..?
i waited so long to graduate from my primary,secondary n high school just to simply choose my uni o college..?

maybe i'm just a small kid compare to others because i don't have the sense of danger on my future that will continue to what steps..

it's really a hard decission to make as many wall's appear in front of me..
money's problem as i'm wasting my parents money if i don't make a choice once and for all..
parent's problem also as they start to worry of my future and short of money..
self problem as i don't make a choice that is good between money and parents..plus i not dare to discuss with my parents expectually my father who is veri strict from the beginning..
the most important is i even not yet earning for money and already spend thousands o more!
i'm still a kid who pass my hands to my parents and say,"ma,giv me money." "pa,why u give me de money so little de?"

goddamn mother fxxker for myself that i still have the same thought now but thinking of the future that how do i supposed to earn back the money they gave to me for the pass few years!?

i've spend too much ever since i was born and my growing process that's make me think i owe my parents..but for real i really owe them..lol..

So back to the real thing,i'm hesitate very hard to think about my future but there's no solution in my heart also..

i decided to wait for any 1 month to choose whatever that i'm going to other places o stay at here..

Choice..
Choose..
Future..
Parents..
Money..
Friends..
Loves..

All this thing suddenly BANG into my head makes me feel like im deperate for help and hope for someone who can pull me from the falling deep graveyard who has holes in it..

Hope for someone who can pull me from this world feel with miserable and also lonely..

今年的第一个部落格。。

今年发生很多事情。。例如今天输了班级排球赛。。非常的不爽。。
再来是成绩非常的滥。。！
我的天啊！
又是热天来了！
我的天天天啊啊啊！！！
几不爽一下咯。。
现在完全没有读书的气氛。。

一句话。。

我。。可能。。已经。。完了。。

就这样~~！

女孩。。。

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友 ,

你們可能相愛過，

你們也可能喜歡著彼此，但是，

為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。

也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。

也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。

也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。

也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。

也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。

也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。

但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。。。

书考‘完’了。。

书。。已经考‘完’了。。
为何我要把他框起来并突显他的存在呢？
其实有两个意思。。

一，就是书。。真的已经考完了。。

二，就是书。。我的成绩也完蛋了。。哈哈。。

真的是不知道怎么办。。

算了吧。。忘了吧。。

都是past tence 了。。

一切重新开始吧！！！

寂寞先生。。

你的笑容是恩惠..
世界难得那麼美..
於是追..要你陪..可惜本能终会将美丽汗水化成泪水..
黑夜之所以..会黑..
叫醒人心里的鬼..
在游说..在萦回..在体内是什麼在把我摧毁..在伤痕累累..
我可以无所谓..!寂寞却一直掉眼泪..
人类除了擅长颓废..做什麼都不对..
Oh…Im Not Okay..
我假装无所谓..!是看不到心被拧碎..
人在爱情里越残废..就会越多安慰..
无论有多虚伪..

考试了。。。

园游会那天，也过了很久了，也忘了有何事发生了。。。就此不提。。。哈哈。。。XD。。。

现在，天气昨天突然变涼了。。。真他妈的冷！Zzz。。。

最近考试要到了。。。渐渐的从宅男的身份变为考生的身份了。。。

所以，要努力了。。。

噢我的天啊！考试很辛苦！

真是不爽呗！